London: I think we've got a problem

Nikki,
I didn’t want it to have to come to this, but it MUST be done. It seems like I have to tell you JUST how much you mean to me and what kind if impact you have made in my life.
When we first met (like… what, almost a year ago? ish?), I’m just gonna be the blunt person that I am, I really didn’t like you. I thought to myself “yeah, this girl is cool… whatever.” and yet I still told you a lot of personal stuff (about as personal as it gets with me.. the rock). I just felt like I could tell you everything single thought and emotion I have ever felt and you wouldn’t tell a soul. I could shove all my baggage onto you and you would just take it. And for some reason, I LOVED IT. After a few months, I started wanting to talk to you. I wanted to tell you everything that happened that day just for the hell of it. THEN, jesus, then one day something HUGE happened; I just poured all this crap onto. I was fighting with all my friends, I was going through a really hard time, and of course I told you, and you offered your advice, and I’ll be damned, you fixed EVERYTHING. Literally. I was awe-struck that you, some chick from cali, could practically fix my life. THAT’S the day I considered you my best friend. Above everyone else, YOU, a girl I have never personally met. These days, I don’t tell you a lot, and I WANT too. I want to tell you all about Trevor and all about volleyball and EVERYTHING there is to know about school and the stupid people there and how much I hate this person or how much I LOVE this other person. I just always forget. (:

BUT ANYWAY: Nikki, you have changed a lot of things about me for the better. Kameron? yeah, the kid has some problems. I’m sorry, but he just does. If he hasn’t seen that you are gonna change his life, then he must be blind. Straight-up blind. Nikki you are going to make some man very happy one day and it may not be Kameron and it very well could be Brendon or Dimitri or whatever the fuck his name is. And he is going to make you so much happier than Kameron is right this very second.
I do not want you to ever, EVER, EVER, EVER think that you aren’t good enough for ANYONE. Because truth of the matter is, you just are. You are more than enough. More than ANYONE could ask for. Stupid, blind jerks like Kameron just can’t see that. I’m sorry if my words about Kameron are hurtful but that is what I think about him right now. He’s pissing me off because he is making you unhappy. If he prooves to not be an ass, well you let me know and I just might like this kid.
So… if you skimmed everything I just said from the first word, here is the gist of what I am trying to say: Nikki, I love you and please, please, PLEASE remember that. ALWAYS. Call me if you need me, I’ll try to keep my phone around more often.
“It’s the same thing everyday
Because we run out of things to say
If you’re gone and me not here
It kind of sheds a different light on the whole year”
With so much love,
Sheila.

That is the reason why I love my friends, especially Sheila, so much. I dont know what Id do with out them. They help me get by in life and Im sure I help them too. I will write something back to her. Its not gonna be as great at that, but Im determined to do it, even if its the last thing I do. Friends are the absolute best. Hold onto to yours or else youre going to regret it.



You treat me just like another stranger.
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir.
Ignorance is your new best friend.

-Nikki

Only I dont. Anyway. Whats up world? Long time no chat? Ive been.. busy. Kind of.
Dealing with the pressures of being a teenage girl. Boys. Girls. Not knowing who I should like.
Well… I cant like him. But I dont want to give up on him. Not yet.
Him and I are good friends and, you never know.
He may break up with his girlfriend to be with me….. HAHA. That was a good joke. But anyway.
I’ll just let him be happy with her. Thats all I really care about. I want him to be happy.
Lets see… I think I like a couple of girls.
Ones named Ivy the others name is Carissa. Theyre both really pretty and really nice.
But I dont think they like me like that back and Id rather spare myself the embarrassment of telling them that I like them. So Im just gonna stay quiet.
I really dont know what else there is to talk about. Im not that exciting and I dont think anyone reads this
anyway, but whatever, at least I can get stuff out. Im listening to
Mindless Self Indulgence. Amazing? I know.
Well.. I think thats all I have to say right now. I should really start to learn how to be a better writer. 
Maybe then people will wanna know what I have to say.

Goodnight, moon.
 

And if you cant agree with me and mr. twain: 
in matters of opinion our rivals are insane.